I never REALLY liked roller coasters…..

November 22, 2014

     Its 2-0-1-4 we are still living in Maryland and have been here almost 3 1/2 years.  This coming year is our year to move.  The big decision lately is whether or not to stay in the Coast Guard or get out. I think we are leaning towards getting out.  We are most likely moving to Long Island this summer but probably more towards the end since we have to sell our house.  The kids are great, Taylor will be 8 next month and is in 2nd grade, she has Mrs Khoshtinat.  Dominick is 5 1/2 and is in Kindergarten, he has Mrs Schroen.  Chris is 4 and in Preschool at Crofton Day School.   Alexis is 2 1/2 and stays home with me.  OH and we are having baby #5, I think, Maybe, Sorta, Kinda.  So I found out I was pregnant on a tuesday Sept 23rd…. So that makes me 3 months and a week tomorrow…. Ever since we found out it has been the most stressful time of my life.  Our first Dr appt I was only 4 weeks and it was wayyyy to early to see anything.  I decided to switch dr.'s to Annapolis OBGYN, since they deliver at a hospital closer to me that I am more familiar with.  Well our first appt came Thursday Oct 9th, and I had josh come with me (chris and Alexis tagged along too) I just had a bad feeling from the start.  We did a sonogram and the stenographer looked funny so I asked her if she saw twins? And she said "no Its just that the baby is implanted SO LOW in your uterus" that would be the first of many times that I would hear that.  So then we went to talk to the Dr. Her name was Dr Stit.  She was my friend Shannon's friend so I was excited to meet her and tell her I was a friend of Shannon's….. She told us that the implantation was VERY VERY low and that she basically has never seen this low of a pregnancy make it.  I asked her a million questions, and she said "you guys obviously wanted this pregnancy" so she told us that "we could try again after I get my next first period." I kinda laughed b/c this was not exactly a plan in the first place but YES we were excited.  I asked her if she's seen a baby be born that was so low in the uterus and she went on to tell us how there is no way a baby can even stretch and grow that low, she also said that she's been doing this for 10 years and has never seen a baby born like this….. So we were pretty sad & teary eyed right away, she said "I'm sorry" and left the room. I make an appt for 2 weeks bc thats what she said to do and all left and went home, it was a pretty sad next 2 weeks.  We had Rachel's wedding in Indiana in-between all the waiting which made it pretty stressful.  Well nothing had happened the next 2 weeks besides lots of googling on low implantations, which I had never had to think about with my previous 4 pregnancies.  I found good and bad things about this, lots of ppl said they miscarried and some ppl said their baby's moved up with the uterus.  Well I went for my next sonogram by myself and figured I would Not see anything BUT I was pleasantly surprised when I saw a heartbeat on the screen!!  I really couldn't believe it…. but again they just said it was a watch and wait kind of thing and I left again with no news and still the possibility that I wold miscarry.  Well on my drive home the Dr saw me and said she was thinking about me and that she wanted me to see a specialist.  I was so excited to see a specialist bc I knew they could tell me more…. SO I made an Apt with the specialist and went to my appt…. He said the pregnancy was LOW but he said he's seen this before and that they had a good looking kid LOL so I was SO RELIEVED….. now since then I've been to a few more dr appts and a couple specialist appts and the baby is growing perfectly and tested negative for down syndrome and all the other syndromes that they test for.  I was ecstatic to hear that news….. Now this past week josh was suppose to be away up in Cleveland but bc of snow he didn't' go…. well thank GOD bc I woke up at about 3am on tuesday morning and I started bleeding out of no where.  Of course I freaked out and we went to the ER, threw all the kids in the van and I went in the ER and Josh waited in the car with them as they slept.  The ER dr basically looked at me like a miscarriage but I told him I wanted to have a sonogram so they put an IV in me and did a pelvic exam where he figured out that my cervix was closed, which is a good thing, and then the sonogram showed the baby was perfectly fine!!  I couldn't believe it AGAIN! This baby is testing my nerves…. I stopped bleeding that afternoon and for another day I was good but thenWednesday NIGHT at 10pm the same thing happened but this time it lasted until today saturaday, and I THINK its almost gone but not 100.  Since I started bleeding again I went in to see the dr on thursday and they did a sonogram and this time the stenographer saw another weird thing, she called it a mass and said it looks like blood to her!!! I spoke to the dr who had no idea what to tell me and I was so pissed off…. she gave me the whole miscarriage speech again or told me it could go away.  I left there again in tears and called the specialist right away, I told them my dr saw a mass in my uterus and kinda lied my way into an appt.  I ran over there and they took me so fast.  The stenographer did a sonogram then Dr Sweeney came in and said that he saw this on my last sonogram but didn't want to worry me so he didn't' tell me.  He said that he thought it was either a blood clot or something else but I can't remember the word and he said he is not worried about it bc he thinks it will dissolve and everything will be ok! OMG I WAS SO RELIEVED!! I am not 100% convinced that it will be ok but he is VERy reassuring and keeps telling me that he see's this pregnancy as one that will have a good outcome…. He did say at my 2nd appt that I may not have a uterus at the end of this but that we would be ok!! So needless to say I am freaking out all the time about what is going to happen to the baby and to me….. I have even said a bunch of prayers which is something I don't normally do but I think in order to get me through this Im going to have to have FAITH.  This is a name I am considering for this baby if it is a girl.  Next week is Thankgiving and I plan to tell all my family as long as things are still okay… I am almost hesitant to do this but on the other hand I tell my family everything so I think this is something they should know…. besides I am sooooo excited about this baby (when I set aside all the terrible things I am thinking MIGHT HAPPEN, how exciting baby #5!)  

Yep this picture sums up 2012.... New baby ...... lots of mess's........ and kids getting in trouble.....


Alright im doing it... AGAIN..... I hope to keep it up this time even if I only write one sentence! My brain is turning to mush and I am afraid I will forget all the cute/gross/funny/ etc things that happen at our house while the kids are so little.  Taylor just turned 6 and is in Kindergarten and Loves/Hates it.  She cried the first half of the year when i dropped her off but was good in school she didn't like the whole leaving mommy part but now she's got it.  (some days I can still see she wants to cry but usually doesn't) She has found a new love of horses and we put her in horse back riding lessons.  She is like a mini adult, very responsible and caring.  She found a little friend in class that is JUST like her and they are best buds they had their first sleepover last weekend and Taylor had no problem she said "it was the best time EVER"......  Dominick is in preschool AGAIN ... i feel like he's been in preschool forever! He still has one more year of it after this one too! He turns 4 this Tuesday and has a list of ironman/lego toys that he wants.  He has really matured this past year (thank God) and has such a great memory, he brings things up from last summer that i cant believe he actually remembers.  His big thing right now is dinosaurs and Ironman/superhero guys.  Its so funny because your either on Dominick's good side or your not and he is soooo mad at you... but when your on his good side you get the sweetest smiles and kisses from him.  Man whoever marries him is REALLY in for a roller coaster ride! haha   Christopher is 2 and I cannot believe the things this kid can do/say he is wayyyyy too grown up for his age.  There is nothing he cannot say or do he really does amaze me with how mature he is and it blows my mind that he isn't even 2 1/2 yet.  He told me in the car the other day that "his hair was ruined" b/c Dominick touched it or something.  LOL He is deff our little Dennis the Menace even more than Dominick was.  Right now his biggest thing is the dust buster.... MY DUST BUSTER not a toy one he loves this thing and no matter how high up i put it he gets to it!  He is the reason why they make locks for doors/closets/cabinets/ and refrigerators!  AND then there is ALEXIS ROSE.... she is the sweetest baby ever !! I can't say enough about how awesome she is... she sleeps all night and is such a "CHILL" baby, she is now just about 8 months old and is finally starting to make me do a little extra work! SHe is dong the army crawl and can ge to pretty much anywhere by dragging herself or scooting her way over to things.... she still naps twice a day which is great and sleeps all night long which is even GREATER.... she has not one tooth but eats everything! and drinks from a sippy cup!  She is such a bald little girl but they all were so she's right on track she WILL get hair eventually =) Sometimes I still can't believe i got the little girl that I wanted SOOOOO BAD well me and Taylor both wanted so bad! We have enough boy boys in the house i couldn't handel anymore of them! Josh is still going to school and working 2 jobs..... he is wayyy too busy if you ask me but some how he does it all.... and I am still in school but the light at the end of the tunnel is VERY close! I am taking 2 classes this term and 2 next term and i am DONE I will be a master of education (AHHAHAHHA) then all the fun starts like student teaching and passing all those tests that im sure will take me 34802849023 thousand tries before i pass them.  anyway besides that Maryland is OK i like it but i don't bc no family is here so that stinks but it is a nice area and I really can't ask for more than living RIGHT next to the school... Makes my morning so easy when i get to roll the kids out of bed, throw them in my triple jogger and run taylor to school and I can hear the last bell go off if I am in the backyard.  okay i have to get some school work done but im glad i started this things finally bc i kept saying i was going to but then never did!
 

thursday

Did it again=) i'm on track i woke up did hip hop abs, then ran a mile before dinner and did lots of ab exericises.... i ate healthy and didn't snack too much... i sure hope this works... other than that i took the kids to "old richmond town" for story time with taylor's friend Kiera and her mom then they came over for a lil bit ... after they left i met some of taylor's other friends and their moms at a park near by for some more play time then came home and ran and OHHH how could i forget to write this... i ate ONE small piece of chicken tonight..... i am fed up with eating veggie burgers filled with salt every day so i'm going to make myself eat chicken and turkey.... i think that will help my life a lot as far as eating healthy and eating when we go out.

I don't need a 6 pack i just want to slim down

So i did it! i woke up and did hip hop abs (this is what i always SAY i'm going to do but NEVER actually do it) I ate really healthy all day long, cleaned the house all day bc we showed it tonight, then i went out for a jog from 8:45-9:10 then did sit ups! It was about 90 degree's today so i sweat like a PIG and it felt great =) i took some before pictures because i am determined to take the AFTER picture soon. hopefully i can keep this up.... i really wasn't too hard i need to keep it up though, i usually go good for about a week or 2 then something happends and i stop but this time i have a goal. We are going to SC around une 20th and i want to wear a bikini we'll see! i'm going to try and write every day.... other than that it was a boring day of cleaning and i took the kids to school then i took some old stuff that i had around the house to "once upon a child" and got 20 bucks for it, (oh wait i got 20 bucks but then i found a really cute Gymboree bathing suit for taylor so i bought that for 5.50) so i ended up with $14.50 but hey its better than nothing and i got rid of some crap in the process! Its about 10pm and i'm ready to shower and hit the hay soon, dominick is already sleeping and taylor is prob ready to go to bed soon too... chris took a nap so i have to get his tired again! Josh is down stairs working his 2nd job, he played bball after work then mowed the lawn so i think we'll all sleep well tonight! TTYL

I CAN SMELL SUMMER!

Well we made it through the winter.... just barley but we made it! The kids were sick every 5 seconds so I am glad that its over with! It seems as if mother nature has decided to skip spring this year because it already feels like summer! Tomorrow is June 1st (well technically its midnight so today is june 1st) and i have big plans for June... i have set a work out routine for myself and i hope it actually works this time.... i need to loose this baby weight around my waist because it drives me nuts EVERY day when i put on clothes and I was thinking about how much better it would feel to just get in shape again! Our 5th wedding anniversary is in 22 days and i hope to drop 7lbs by then so I can be the weight i was when we first got married!!! (i know 7 lbs sounds like a little but when your not even 5 foot its a LOT) besides that.... Christopher is almost walking, he is getting his 3rd tooth (front top) He's finally starting to sleep all through the night....(only took him 9 1/2 months to figure out he doesn't NEED a bottle half way through his sleep) and he is usually a happy lil boy crawling around but sometimes he gets in these moods where he wants to be held All day! Dominick is hilarious, he is either the cutest boy in the world, digging for worms or the biggest brat in the world, screaming his head off! Taylor just won at her 2nd beauty pageant (Grand Ambassador) so she is sooo exicted about that and is already planning her 5th birthday party (she comes up with a different themed party she wants to have every day!), and Josh had his 2nd foot surgery and is now all cleared to play ball again so we went to his 1st game tonight. (he played pretty crappy) LOL We are being send town to Washington D.C but still have not sold our house so its hard to plan for the future when we have no idea where we will be living! we need to sell this house ASAP! actually we have people looking at it tomorrow so hopefully fingers crossed they like it (everyone says they like it but we never got an offer) I'm going to go do some cleaning before i sleep since everyone else is already asleep and i can get a lot done! TTYLS!

Is it Summer Yet?

I can't take the winter anymore... being stuck inside with 3 kids, 2 dogs, 3 fish, and a gimpy husband is driving me a little crazy... okay A LOT crazy.... Its amazing how the change of season can affect my attitude! Josh had his foot surgery last week and is in a cast up to his knee... so he's home with us for the next 3 weeks! And in that time we should be finding out where we are being sent to! SHEESH thats another reason why this winter feels like forever.. bc our fate is going to be determined by a simple email or phone call. ANYWHO enough of the complaining.... The kids are all big, Christopher is already doing the army crawl and i swear he waves HELLO when i wave to him! i have yet to get that on video though so nobody believes me haha.... Everyone is getting big way too fast... Taylor is like a little shopping partner for me lol except she isn't ALLL the way there yet... maybe in a few years. Dominick has been seriously testing my patients, his temper tantrums are awful! He can be the sweetest little thing and then as soon as he doesn't get his way its like he turns into a different child! I am working on it though bc i refuse to let him grow up to be the crazy kid that nobody wants to have at their house. Josh is home with his foot like i said, but he's also working a lot from home with Western Govenors, he grades papers at the masters level, its a pretty sweet side job to have! I wish i could but in order to get the job you have to be working towards your doctorate. I just got my bachelor degree in september 2010 right after i had Christopher.... and now the big decision is if i should start going back to school again for my masters in teaching bc i think thats my ultimate goal. I can work when i know i have the summers off to be with the kids! Other then that Jessica is in Hawaii with Rusty seeing his parents for the first time since they were engaged... oh yea jess and rusty got engaged on her birthday (january 29th) this year! He had "WILL YOU MARRY ME" written on 2 giant cupcakes at this cute little cupcake shop in the city! And besides all that...... we just welcomed in little Christina Francesca last week! February 18th 2011!! she was 19" and 6lbs 10oz! Soooo cute and looks just like Despina. So far from what i've heard she's doing great but has her days and nights mixed up so poor mike and eva aren't sleeping much, but i think no matter how good the baby is, they don't sleep much in the beginning! Right now the kids are upstairs getting pj's on (by themselves ahh) and christopher is in his high chair listening to josh talk to his mom on the phone, (she's waiting to pick Toby up at the airport from China.) We have Bella here visiting bc mom and dad went to Atlantic City for their 39th anniversary! Alright the kiddies are down here with their pj's in hand and needing a help! NIGHT!

Time fly's its 2011!!!!

Well its feb 3, 2011... where does the time disappear too? Taylor is now 4, Dominick 2, and christopher will be 6 months old in a week! Thanksgiving was in Ny at moms, and Christmas & New Years was in SC with Josh's family.... WOW that trip is getting longer and longer with each new kid! LOL We did the kids birthday party on jan 15th Dominick's real birthday, we waited on doing Taylors until then bc DEC is such a crazy time of the year! It worked out great though and all their friends came during the day for a kiddie party with blow up bouncers and at night my family came... needless to say the kids got WAYYYY too many presents! Lately the weather has been crazy, its been snowing every week A LOT so we've been stuck inside a lot... at least there is school for the kids or i think we'd go stir crazy sitting inside everyday.... Its only a matter of time before we find out where we are going to next with the Coast Guard. We hope to stay in the house we are at but nothing is for sure until we get our orders but no matter where we get around here, josh's commute is going to be a LOT longer so that may be interesting. I just don't want to go THAT far from family & friends, there are so many weddings and babies now that i dont' want to miss! Jess just got engaged this past weekend on her birthday =0) rusty took her to the city to this place called CRUMBS and had it written on these 2 cupcakes and when she read them and turned to Rusty he was down on his knee... how freaking cute! This weekend coming up is Michael's girlfriends baby shower on sat so i'll be on long island on sat... and her shower is at the place that jess wants to look at for her wedding so we get to try the food and see the place without having an apt so that works out! I'm going to try and add some pix!